Contentment

This feeling of contentment prevails in my mind despite all the seemingly unconquerable demons...maybe in finding this calm I have somewhat silenced the storm. For the first time in a while I've come across two revelations and I plan to stick to them for as long as I can.

The first revelation is simple yet powerful to me, the 23rd Psalm (which I plan to get a tattoo of), the Lord is my Shepherd I shall not want. Only I've substituted the word 'want' for 'need'. It's a deep realisation that despite all the turmoil that's occurring in my life I have always and will always have what I need. Before you jump to any conclusions...I'm not religious but this verse holds a wisdom that I can't help but see how profound it is...at least a small part of how powerful its meaning can be.

It's a level of comfort that keeps me from panicking when the ship seems to be sinking. This scripture verse is the explanation behind why I always land on my feet despite whatever circumstance.

The second revelation is a couple of lines from one of my favourite songs by Madonna, 'The power of Good-Bye'. The lines are, "Freedom comes when you learn to let go. Creation comes when you learn to say no...There's no greater power than the power of goodbye". I naturally close doors in my life; I've been doing it for awhile now. Yet it's just now that I see how important 'saying goodbye' was for me. It's the survival instinct, it keeps me ticking. Now that I know the power of goodbye I am able to let go of aspects of my life that were holding me back and I am able to reduce the level of importance that I placed on some things before.

I can't say that I am completely happy at this stage but like I said from the start I am possessed with a feeling of contentment, I now have a stronger understanding of how I can live without...